Grief...

My hubby found this painting on imugr and I immediately had to find out more about the artist and how to get a print. I found her on instagram and she shared a link to where I could buy a print! You can get your own here!

I love it, it's beautiful, and yes I have a bit of dark side in me. She's seriously an amazing artist, and it just seems like a piece that takes you back to older artist with so much meaning hidden in their art. I love it!

I have to say grief is such a huge part of going through the infertility process, and what I have to say is sometimes you do need help. It's so hard to ask for help and support. I know it seems counterproductive but to stop some of the up and down of the roller coaster I did speak with my primary doc about the depression I was having. Now I do think that I have struggled with some depression even in the past, totally worse during my time of the month in the past. My doc was well informed that I was TTC, and still highly recommended some anti-depressants to help since depression and anxiety itself can effect conceiving. It's still safe to be on while you're pregnant, and it has made a huge difference in my mood and attitude. For me, it was a like a switch and I could move forward with handling this process. I know a lot of people are afraid of anti-depressants while TTC, but after feeling so down you have to weight the pro and cons for yourself, and speak with your doctor about it. My fertility clinic just made sure that I had spoken with my primary about the fact that I was TTC, and were totally fine with it. So, for me it has been awesome, and I'm feeling so much better.

I also recommend you speak with your clinic about counseling since my clinic does offer counselors free of charge! Which is amazing!

Hope that this helps!

Best,

Natasha